About
There is something about writing by hand that I keep coming back to. The way ink flows from pen to page, how thoughts seem to pour out when I stop trying to control them. Stephen King writes about this in On Writing. The act of putting words down becomes its own form of discovery. That resonated with me deeply.
This practice of freewriting, of mining the subconscious, has become the center of everything you see here.
I started this without a map. Just notebooks and the compulsion to record whatever was drifting below the surface of general consciousness, waiting to make its way out. What you'll find here is the result of that expedition. Handwritten journals translated into digital form, reflections that became essays, the slow accumulation of a life being examined.
What Lives Here
Essays on technology and consciousness, AI development, philosophy. What it means to be aware in an age when machines are learning to think alongside us. Carl Sagan's The Dragons of Eden shaped how I think about the evolution of human intelligence.
Book Reviews on everything that has shaped how I see the world:
- Philosophy & Meaning: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, The Stranger by Albert Camus, Peace in Every Breath by Thich Nhat Hanh
- Cosmic Perspective: Pale Blue Dot by Carl Sagan - The book that fundamentally changed how I see our place in the universe
- Writing & Creativity: Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott, On Writing by Stephen King, Gertrude Stein on Writing
- Technology: Hackers: Heroes of the Computer Revolution, Insanely Great on the Macintosh revolution
- Fiction & Adventure: All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr, Pink Boots and a Machete
If a book changed me, I wrote about it. Browse them all
Freewriting sessions where I let the pen make its own journey and see what neighborhoods we come across. Raw, unfiltered, sometimes strange.
Journals tracking the decanal cycles. Ten-day rhythms of transformation and cosmic awareness.
And AgentSpek, a book I'm writing about human-AI collaboration, published here for free as I write it.
Some of it will resonate. Some won't. I write to discover where the writing leads, not to arrive somewhere predetermined.
A Humble Request
I need to be honest with you.
I know you're out there. The server logs show visitors arriving, reading deeply, spending time with the ideas. But you use privacy browsers. Ad blockers. You're invisible by design, and I respect that deeply.
What you may not see is that running this site costs money. Hosting is not cheap. And I am struggling this year.
I want to keep this space clean. No intrusive ads. No paywalls. No monetization schemes that pollute the experience. I want this to remain what it is: a reflection of a life being examined, an attempt at balance in a culture that often feels out of sync with reality, with the nature of the universe and its quiet truths.
But I need help to continue.
How You Can Help
If you are already thinking of buying a book, any book I've reviewed here, please use my affiliate link. That's all I ask. It costs you nothing extra. It keeps these lights on.
Maybe you've been curious about The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho's classic on finding your personal legend. Maybe you want to improve your writing with On Writing by Stephen King or Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott. Maybe you need adventure, and Pink Boots and a Machete would hit the spot.
Whatever it is: if you're already going to buy it, let that purchase help me keep going.
Why This Matters
The ancient texts and sacred beliefs have always said it: life is not one thing or another but a singular moment of awareness and being. A beautiful universe. An elegant mess. I love it all, how rich it is, and I want to keep exploring it and sharing what I find.
But an artist still has to put bread on the table. That tension is real, and I'm living it.
Once I can stand on my two feet again, my commitment is to keep this space as pure as possible. Quality over quantity. Depth over traffic. A life well-lived and well-examined, offered freely to anyone who wants to read it.
Help me get there.
Show Me You're There
If something here has meant something to you, if an essay shifted your thinking, if a book review led you somewhere unexpected, if the freewriting reminded you that you're not alone in the search for meaning, please help me keep going.
That simple act tells me: I see what you're doing. Keep going.
People of the stars, I know you're out there. I feel you in the quiet presence, the time spent reading. Let me feel you another way.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for reading.
And if you can, thank you for helping keep this alive.
Joshua