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The final decan before the Egyptian New Year. After five decans with the Hunter, Sothis arrives: the brightest star in the sky, not because it is the most powerful but because it is the closest. Ten days to ask the only question that matters at the end of a cycle: What have you become?
Reflections on AI involvement in creative work, the barbell strategy of artistic practice, and finding freedom in constraints. On regeneration vs. creation, machine prejudice, deep breathing through confusion, and the joy of making sculptures on the page. A meditation on coherence among life's interests and the mineral-rich deposits we mine.
From Goonies wisdom to cosmic motion, a stream-of-consciousness journey through the craft of writing. On being witness and scribe, the sacred line, motion in space, unscheduled symphonies, and the practice of staying focused while the universe moves forward. Wrestling with penmanship, meaning-making, and the role of recording consciousness.
Organic, bubbling energy. Return to the practice: breath work, loose hands, posture. Stay out of the way but in focus, capturing transmissions as beautifully as possible. A scribe to the process, exploring channels and levels while sailing across the page.
So heavy right now it's best just to focus on the basics. On relinquishing control, coming back to breath and posture, steady rhythm, and being investigator to the human condition. A life examined, hopefully well-lived.
What constitutes hormesis. Nobody told me it was broken! A 1:38am exploration of stress and adaptation, the Universe vs God, AI minion work, and the meditation of handwriting. From philosophical declarations to the pursuit of perfect penmanship and true flow.
Places and are builds in the shadows. On balance, beautiful lettering, continuous motion, and the grind. Winter reflections on sailing to Betelgeuse, building redundant systems, and finding joy in nature and art.
Gold from the earth. Rare elements from the mind. What is still to be learned and mined from consciousness. Think Tank. Exploring systems within systems, the art of cursive writing, and the organic pathway to illumine thought-worlds.
12/31/2025 Back with the Uniball - thick, rich ink flowing out. Breathe in slow and let it out. Let shoulders relax and down. Draft with the ink without trying to predict next thought or action. Th...
December 24, 2025 It's really still 12/23 for me as I yet have more sleep coming before the dawn of the day of Christmas Eve. I'm writing this by candlelight and it is a bit like walking in the dar...
December 17th, 2025 Well Hello Wednesday! And here we go into some flow, flow, flow! If things go according to plan I'm fairly certain clamping down on learning more with by the way to go and? Hay ...
December 14th 2025 Continued outside. 3pm and the sun is crossing the small-tree on our south-facing slope and starting to touch the horizon. It will become chilly soon and I'll be forced to go ins...
I do love a good story and Shakespeare had that skill of analyzing humans and their interconnectedness and those personalities and the emotions emitted while also contributing a backdrop of action ...
I've barely had moments to really stand back and reflect on everything within the past 7 months. That is like WTF right? you. When I peep how certain days keep accomplished. How my lifelines change...
This has really been a useful slight exploration of self and capabilities this year. I still feel like pinch me I must be dreaming God bless if you say so and let's do this to the Heavens I'm desti...
12/9 · 2025 DECEMBER A quiet morning. I'm reminded of fresh footsteps in the snow where there were none before. That's a nice feeling. And also knowing that for countless centuries humans have pres...
December 8 2025 I'm not sure on where I stand in between Martin Talbot and key Vanguard on body preservation. Or even what my thought are on actual personal vitality if I were to stay up load my mi...
December 4th 2025 Tick-tock. Ding-dong. Writing in a different place and time and position but the one remains the same the focus on poetry and breath and relaxation of hand. There is also freedom ...
They are the sensor, the early warning systems of Options exist because the world is uncertain and people need a way to manage, transfer or profit from that uncertainty. I was here a moment ago and...
and the solar rays. Alright I've pulled up to a table and now want to really test this pen out and let it fly. It is very smooth and nice to write with. But I cannot write for too long for fear of ...
To sit a moment when all around there are those with invisible needs that require invisible attention. As I make my way through Nasim Nielsen's Public Antifragile books and take on another thing to...
Fall reflections on our cosmic motion, from Nevada's hills to the Great Attractor. Exploring how understanding our 620 km/s journey through space transforms our earthbound perspective of time, consciousness, and what it means to be 'star people.'
I'm on break. This is my page. My page to create with. My page to finish, & who am I interacting with when my pen goes into flow, stops and the silence comes spiraling out. When I like reading with...
3rd rock from the sun. I'm thankful all this time as the earth has been traveling and I with it constantly in motion, day becomes night, & the cycle repeating. All year repeating
Floating in space, on this rock we call earth. Here I am. Neither there or here just am. A meditation on writing as flow state, the art of presence, and the expansive liberation of growth.
Delivery something equally each day. Keep gas in the tank, refill at quarter, before running empty. Good rule of thumb to live by for myself and my cars. There is only so much one can do in a day and...
So yeah. Hello page, hello pen. This week, once again more going on than I can track. New learning and projects each day building on my skills, and learning by doing. Any problems I pull myself or...
What I enjoy most about collaborating with AJ is when we focus our collective energy onto a new project and each time the results are so impressive and joyful. Because of the many frameworks, tools...
of an immense possibly never ending universe. All the way back to the material, on the page. Something so physically tangible and concrete and yet a blank slate also Curator to be Quell and activated...
Later that evening. Ambient glow of day gets green on purple blacklight. Small touches of a richer life in the mid 2020s. By 2030 the capabilities of human machine systems will drive industries and...
the things you dream to accomplish. In another life the opportunity may not have ever been available. If there is no path, no opportunity and you can the forge one and be ready to jump onto the ship...
I'm thankful and grateful!! The day is beautiful and the animals are so cute. The clouds in particular today are quite pretty and complex and varied to, in fun to look at. I can't see if my shapes...
Take advantage of every minute and the in-between times particularly for the things that introduce calm quiet balance to gut active and challenging stages on life where all cycles and threads are in...
equilibrium, just like body. Soul who longs so perhaps it's a need clear to focus, on urgent and gloopy. Delphic soul is the space, between breath and breathing.
his guild. He was tired and he knew it. If only he could put together a fire and get these spirits bright of a last hurdle. If only. If only what. If only I had what. What would you think. A clever...
Back home in the beautiful desert I love, the evening sun and warm breeze, endless blue skies and if you watch things they will grow! I'm so content and happy. The angels the children the goings on....
Back in the Evergreen state and using my knowledge and power of Kit for good. Also completely worn out and tired on so many levels. I'd heard a lot and continue to prepare myself to face more. Having...
Finding myself at the airport is a bit surreal and got just right. This is how we talked about it happening. Maybe the week is a little longer, but with work most days and this financial stuff to...
but so, too the monk and yet on the surface things look very different.
A clean slate of paper is like a fresh piece of concrete newly poured and supremely usable in its flatness and ability to direct solidity and flatness to an otherwise rolling organic surface. Not...
It's good to be writing. There is a comfort in the familiar to be an organized element and to enjoy the making of words and meaning with little squiggly lines. And I really like cursive and the flow....
My new process will benefit greatly from some simple mods to my own processes. So starting a new page - date on top with date in a manner that cannot be confused, which often Mm & DD get turned...
Another release and another head spinning implementation. Before I continue I'll pause to review and of my own creation and see if it has significance on the hard work over the past 2 hours. Web...
7202025 There will have to be patience with ourselves and others as we go down this path.
The line drifts across the page unknowing and without purpose. Not seeking nor doing but flowing and gently pulling.
Tuesday July 15th 2025 One thing I've learned is the systems are pretty good, just need more therapy.
July 9 2025 Let us not be rush or even allow any judgment to fall on others, and rather inspect within ourselves what we may be so fragile and easily disturbed over possibly not as focused as first...
And they continued down the path until the next incarnation.
July 2nd, 2025 So, I can do more work. At a higher level. At a greedy pace. What does that mean? On the big scale of things during my run today, both the run and this break I'm taking advise me of the importance to take breaks and still be mindful Build more. Do more. Look for more. Think Big. Think Systems. Think Architecture. It is a bit like Christmas waiting for the payoff and keeping the work going and a well oiled machine. What does it mean when work becomes so fun and exciting and so much is possible....
Otherwise time is running on its own, sometimes very fast and sometimes very slow.
6272025 To drill in somewhat directed in this entry and work to keep clean clear penmanship for later analysis.
6252025 Day 2 using demulty@work and wow, wow, wow, wow.
6-24 What day is this, what planet is this? Is that all relative to my question. The day, a beautiful one. Listen as the birds chirp and tweets. The planet. A solid rock. So solid a nuclear bomb hardly leaves a pimple. In terms of geologic time, it is nothing to be thought about. Just another breath of the cosmos and this too shall pass. Economics of scale, economics of motion. Why do I do it, nowadays for the fun of it It is the best reason to pursue something. Work is beautiful when it can be enjoyed. That by...
What day is this, what planet is this? Is that all relative to my question. The day, a beautiful one. Listen as the birds chirp and tweets. The planet. A solid rock.
6-12-2025 And with some highs come some lows. Especially with productivity things sometimes go like that. The tide comes, the tide goes out. And again. And again. With all the vs vue asiaks codey season I hope doing it definitely a lot more development. A lot more is possible in shorter time frames. What good are our tools if they don't help us achieve our goals. In the midst of all this change I still am very much in control and only trying to make ever better with things. So firstly I have to answer interruption - lord though writing...
6102025 Time Flying Light speed Idea to MVP Simple Game 1 DAY That really does blow me away.
Putting this beyond Test flight will be impressive but the fundamentals still needs work and should be to a solid useable state before releasing and also with some mechanisms insuring safety of dev...
672025 What's a little lack of sleep when the world is rotating in space like a gyroscope gone out of control being measured in years, billions not seconds and someday it will come to end fall into...
A meditative reflection on collaborating with AI as a creative coding partner, exploring the tension between productivity and disruption, trust and agency, and the evolving nature of work in an era of intelligent machines. Through poetic fragments and philosophical musings, the entry captures the essence of “vibe coding,” the challenges of adapting to new tools, and the beauty found in creative experimentation.
A three-day arc of poetic freewriting exploring abstraction, mental flow, creative overwhelm, and the discipline required to find balance amid life’s demands. These entries weave together musings on thought, memory, penmanship, AI, and self-care, reflecting on the ongoing dance between action and rest, abstraction and the concrete, and the search for meaning within ordinary moments.
A poetic exploration of movement, memory, and the ongoing search for balance amidst life’s physical and mental disruptions. The entry reflects on routines interrupted by travel, the subtle interplay of grit and ease, and the philosophical question of whether writing can exist independently of its author.
A poetic reflection on living through a technological revolution, this entry explores the rapid transformation brought by AI, the allure and risks of innovation, and the search for meaning and balance amid accelerating change. Blending personal contemplation with meditations on design, creativity, and the abstractions of modern life, it offers an intimate snapshot of the present moment at the edge of possibility.
A raw, stream-of-consciousness meditation on embracing the future, navigating uncertainty, and the creative energy found in forging new paths. The piece moves from financial reflection to a riot of sensory detail, celebrating courage, risk-taking, and the deep process of learning through experience.
A meditation on the raw process of creativity, this piece explores the flow of words, the cycles of time, and the interplay between intention, thought, and the act of making. It questions the role of purpose in art and reflects on the human condition within the infinite span of existence.
A meditation on the discipline of writing as both practice and ritual, this piece explores creative flow, subconscious mining, and the strange intersection between human thought and emerging machine intelligence. It reflects on the nature of persistence, the future of creativity, and the unfolding evolution of self through the act of showing up.
A meditative reflection on the practice of handwriting as a gateway into the subconscious. This stream-of-consciousness journal entry explores the inner mechanics of creativity, the discipline of returning to the page, and the mystery of sourcing original thought through rhythm, breath, and presence. Written at the turn of a season, it’s a poetic tracing of movement, inertia, and meaning-making in real time.
Draft journal: If I can convince you for long something I think by
There is no easy way to explain what this is. Some would call it a blog. But blogs have structure, purpose, direction. This has none of those things.
Welcome. This is a place without a name. A page without a purpose. A whisper in the dark corners of thought.
A handwritten meditation on the nature of Mondays, creativity, and the unseen energies behind action. This stream-of-consciousness entry weaves practical reflection with mythic storytelling, culminating in a parable about the value of voice, solitude, and misunderstood wisdom.
This raw, stream-of-consciousness entry explores the intimate process of writing as both compulsion and purpose, grappling with time, intention, and the desire to create something meaningful before life slips away. It reflects on the role of art, the nature of time, and the writer’s duty to give form to the ineffable.
Oxygen, hydrogen, mercury, gold. Elements dear to my being - The achievement of dear Universe. January 21, 2025 Give me a pen & ink and more than anything writing keeps me stable about writing. Ice...
A January free-writing session on the soothing rhythm of pen on paper, the cyclical nature of creative work, and how writing bridges the gap between the regular and the important.
January 5th 2025 Yes. I like writing. Freedom to Express thought as written art. And to create out of any form. Free of any constraints. Art for Art's sake! Let constraints leave their places just ...
7182023 On life post Agentive models: My life has been forever altered my routines and synaptic connections are being wired in new ways.
the internal best around January 7th, 2020 A deep breath. And the optionality of having this time to write. Action creates optionality. The Option has gotten the potentially wrong in relation. I un...
Monday, July 23rd 2018 Took off - VPS airport. A perfectly timed take-off and there we go back home and flying into 2018 or new year instead with many new things to look forward to and experiences....